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I may have been a prisoner in a concentration camp

Willow Rayne

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I consider myself a spiritual person, I am a Reiki Master and over the past few years I have been developing my spiritual practice. I am a huge empath, I read intuitively and recently completed a course on PLRegression. For as long as I can remember I have always been pulled into and fascinated with films , books and documentaries about the holocaust and as much as I hate to say it , I always seem to have a tendency to avoid German males and even go as far as to say that every time I am in the company of one I seem to end up in an argument of some sort. (I am not a bad person I promise). However the more my spiritual practice develop the stronger the feeling I have that I may have been in a concentration camp in my PL. My good friends has been learning to access the Akashic Records and yesterday we sat down and she was practicing on me, and when I asked whether or not I had been in a concentration camp in a past life, she told me that YES I had been in one and I had a very traumatic time and witnessed the death of both my parents , I suffered really badly and that is as much as she was allowed to see. It has made me even more curious now and although I am able to to irk with others as a regression therapist, I am unable to regress myself , and so far have not found someone that is able to help me dig deeper to find out more. I am meditating , asking my guides for guidance and daily I do a self regression session in order to try and find out more, I feel like this feeling is taking over my life.
Has anyone experienced anything similar or can help me in any way, I would be delighted to hear from you.
 
I am a reincarnated Holocaust Victim from Auschwitz-Birkenau. Before Birkenau, I was in Rīga Ghetto then before that Theresienstadt Ghetto for a very short time after being denounced in late 1942 to the Prague Gestapo. I saw the Russian Liberation of the camp in January 1945 and was classed as a survivor, but died in March 1945 then reclassed as a victim.

Camp Victims and Survivors have a very specific ‘set’ of idiosyncrasies. These are some carry overs:

- Can find hiding places quickly.
- Weight loss and gain issues. I myself have had Anorexia twice.
- Comfort eating or eating when your not hungry just because it’s there.. (I’m guilty of this..)
- Adverse reactions to particular places in Europe and in particular Poland and/or Germany (I myself refuse to revisit Poland AT ALL)
- Dislikes authority figures such as Police (some victims still consider the Police people who will hurt them (Gestapo) not protect them)
- Parental clingyness. Clingy towards Mother/Father or both.

There’s heaps more, as each reincarnated victim is unique. Here’s a few of my own:

- I can’t watch any WWII films like Schlinder’s List, The Pianist and any of those sorts of movies. I tried to watch Schlinder’s List once and I was triggered badly at the scene where they are booted into the Ghetto (at the time I didn’t know why).

- I have the tendency to hoard food in the pantry and think there is nothing to eat when really there is (hoarding food was a big issue for medical groups post-liberation we hoarded bread under our mattresses because we didn’t know that we could eat it and get more tommorrow)

I don’t think you are afraid of German men as such, it’s the language that is triggering your dislike. Even some non reincarnated survivors (I mean the ones still living) now have a aversion to the German language and dislike it, whenever they hear it.

Until you discover your memories on your own, you cannot go by what someone has told you. I know this sounds rather harsh (and I don’t mean to be) but until you “feel” your own emotions of being there, it is hard to assimilate whether you truly did so or not.

Also, one last thing. PL healing will only take over your life if you let it. You have learn to balance the two and it is hard, but when you’ve been doing for years (like me and many others) it becomes easier to manage and balance.

Love, Eva x
 
Hi Willow,

Welcome to the forum!

I understand how impatient you are about knowledge about a former life. I think a lot of us can relate to this feeling. The reality is that this information does not just come up on request. Sometimes it happens with triggers, sometimes through repetitive dreams, sometimes just spontaneously, sometimes through meditation. I guess you are also familiar with guided sessions with a professional (as you mention that you've followed a course).

And sometimes there is a huge emotional blockage that shields you from knowing. Before you consider breaking this protective barrier, I think you should realize what this 'knowledge' would add to your current life. It's not just filling in some blanks and then continuing with your life. If your intuition turns out to be based on these 'real facts', your life and your psyche will be put upside down. There is a reason why this past is hidden from you. Probably you are not ready yet to merge with these experiences from the past.

Personally, I would not rely on other people's accounts about your own past selves. I am absolutely convinced this is a journey that each individual should travel by himself/herself alone. Remembering past lives is about healing the soul, about connecting the dots, an inner journey. Along this journey, the validation of memories is not the highest goal. The probability of misimpressions, mistakes or wrong conclusions is great but they are not insurmountable problems.

One of my friends was part of an identical twin (girls) in the holocaust (horror). In this life, they met again (this time with an age gap), both remembering what had happened to them in the past. This was a devastating process for both of them. They still had some telepathic habits from the time they were twin sisters and apart from that, they could recall the same scenes from their respective positions.

My advice would be to take this very slow. I know this is boring advice. Actually, I am working on the same theme myself: my very last life is blocked from me and I don't know why. Not holocaust related btw. I get snippets of information now and then and (although tempted of course) I still manage not to poke in it. I also remember less traumatic lives to keep my mind busy, that helps too. ;)
 
Hi Eva ,

thank you for your reply , I find it really hard to describe how I feel which is crazy as I help people with things like this daily. I have a strong adverse reaction to German men, I am an expat and have a ton of friends who are German and I really am fine with the women but the men trigger something in me and we always seem to clash it’s so weird. I have strong feelings and emotions, when I see pictures and I do experience a deja vu feeling especially when I am in certain places , and have been known to bust into tears at times when I am researching or watching documentaries etc , I have the emotion but it’s like I am blocking out the visions . When I am doing a reiki session or reading for someone I can have strong powerful visions of them and it’s like I have vivid flashes like a movie scene for other people , but for
Me on the subject of the holocaust I seem to block myself if that makes sense.
It’s not my only past life I have seen myself in many other lives , and experienced death in those too , which I guess it’s why I am driving myself mad as I would love to know a bit more about who I was . unlike you where you can’t watch certain things I feel the complete opposite I feel the need to go to these places even although I have a sick to the stomach feeling .
maybe one day it will come to me.
 
Hi Willow,

Welcome to the forum!

I understand how impatient you are about knowledge about a former life. I think a lot of us can relate to this feeling. The reality is that this information does not just come up on request. Sometimes it happens with triggers, sometimes through repetitive dreams, sometimes just spontaneously, sometimes through meditation. I guess you are also familiar with guided sessions with a professional (as you mention that you've followed a course).

And sometimes there is a huge emotional blockage that shields you from knowing. Before you consider breaking this protective barrier, I think you should realize what this 'knowledge' would add to your current life. It's not just filling in some blanks and then continuing with your life. If your intuition turns out to be based on these 'real facts', your life and your psyche will be put upside down. There is a reason why this past is hidden from you. Probably you are not ready yet to merge with these experiences from the past.

Personally, I would not rely on other people's accounts about your own past selves. I am absolutely convinced this is a journey that each individual should travel by himself/herself alone. Remembering past lives is about healing the soul, about connecting the dots, an inner journey. Along this journey, the validation of memories is not the highest goal. The probability of misimpressions, mistakes or wrong conclusions is great but they are not insurmountable problems.

One of my friends was part of an identical twin (girls) in the holocaust (horror). In this life, they met again (this time with an age gap), both remembering what had happened to them in the past. This was a devastating process for both of them. They still had some telepathic habits from the time they were twin sisters and apart from that, they could recall the same scenes from their respective positions.

My advice would be to take this very slow. I know this is boring advice. Actually, I am working on the same theme myself: my very last life is blocked from me and I don't know why. Not holocaust related btw. I get snippets of information now and then and (although tempted of course) I still manage not to poke in it. I also remember less traumatic lives to keep my mind busy, that helps too. ;)

thank you for your reply , it’s wonderful to know others feel the same , and I am so interested in the stories that you all tell.
I do completely agree with all that you have said , and I do tell my clients the same thing as I am a fully qualified PL Regression Therapist , and Hypnotherapist. I guess this is why I struggle with not been able to regress myself to this part of my life.
I have been incarnate many times an some of my PL I have been able to access in great detail. I am used to seeing and feeling things that would be disturbing to a lot of people and have also witnessed my death on a few occasions some which have been rather brutal, I have also experienced the death of family members and to this day I have a strong fear about my loved ones passing , I get strong visions sometimes when I am reading for people and also at times when I am performing Reiki sessions too . I guess your right it I’ll come when I’m ready , I guess I just find it strange that I experience the emotion but not the vision in this case .. so strange.
 
I guess I just find it strange that I experience the emotion but not the vision in this case .. so strange.

One of my friends, with whom I have shared lives, is in exactly the same situation as you are. He was a reincarnation therapist, helped so many people, but he has trouble remembering his own former lives. Regressing to his own former lives was part of the training, so he does know some information, but apart from that he never got spontaneous recalls. His affirmations are his emotions. Funny enough he 'recognized' me by my eyes (and voice) when he saw me on a video (on youtube).
 
Hi, very interesting. Perhaps you do not have unfinished business in that life or you are protected from it. If you do not have nightmare, phoibia, anxiety related to this I would let that life be. I have had some glimpses of a few past lives, little leaks, and those lives are of no interest to me as I think I have worked through it long before another life began. The choice is yours of course.

I have tip toed around what seems to have been a past life where I was accused of having been a witch (during the "burn-the-witch"era, just my luck, would have been easier if it had been other times, then I would not take the accusation so bad ;) and well, you can imagine the rest what happened there. The few glimpses I got of torture, of women being murdered etc was more than enough for me to by instinct try to break away from meditation when I realize I have just landed in that life. Lately though I have felt a veil of protection and I am not exposed to any trauma.

Perhaps if you could protect yourself this way you too can tip around like I do in that life, when and if, it chose to happen.

I hope you don't get me the wrong way. I just don't want you to have traumatic memories that will do you more bad than good.

I may be terribly slow here, but I don't understand the point of someone else telling you you have had that life. What if that person is wrong ? I mean, anyone can be wrong about these sort of things. And what if the person is right -- what good will it do you then ? If you did not ask for it ? Is it not better it comes from you ? Then again my own hubby (whom I think I know from a previous life ) urged me to tell him who I think he had been. Well, I did. And now we say we are never to talk about it again as I told him I thought he could have been my dad, but then again he was, is not as open to all this like many of us who remembers are. ;)

/Jaimie
 
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Hi Willow, thanks for your post here. As of your aversion to the German men that you mention here, I just wanted to reply that I used to be a German soldier myself in my previous life. Now I am a non-German woman. I have travelled a lot around in Germany in this lifetime, since I live in a nearby country. And after meeting and talking to many german people of today, it has come to my mind, that the wast majority of those incarnated in Germany today as Germans (as incarnated into that folk body) are not the same souls as we Germans were at that time, before and during WW2.

I have had some big issues with this, Im not gonna pretend it has not been some kind of griev to me to realise that Im not at all familiar with those who inhabit Germany today.

So where am I going with this...? I just wanted to make you aware that when you say you keep having these fall outs with German men for some unexplained reason one could just wonder about, be aware that those souls are probably not even who you would think they are. I can personally asure you they are not some kind of second or third generation nazis. Not at all. That would rather more likely be said of souls like myself; born and living totally away of germanity now. And if you met me, you would probably not guess I was a German once. At least not to begin with. (Maybe just after a while, if you are very good at those spiritual things.)
 
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