aqualeo
Senior Member
i just read something about my PL that reminded me of a silly yet formative childhood memory from this current life. i had to laugh, because i read that my brother and i had run for president and treasurer (more evidence that he was the Math Twin, not me lol i was the Essay Twin) of our high school, and we BOTH lost.
and that reminded me that in my current life, when i was in sixth grade, i ran for student council. i was in a very competitive high-achiever friend group, so of course i had to keep up with the joneses. eventually (in 7th grade) i got secretary, and i got the little tie pin i wanted, so i could flex with my uniform about having been involved in the upper echelons of the school. very silly.
but in my first election, i think i went for president or something a bit higher level, and i totally crumbled into angry tears about losing to the girl i had decided was my rival. but i got scolded because i should have supported her, we were friends. i really was surprised by how viciously envious i felt at the time, the sudden animosity felt so out of nowhere.
i scared myself so much with how suddenly i hated her, that after that, i prevented myself from ever feeling jealousy or envy or anything like that, and for a while i doubled down really hard on being a Goody Two Shoes. because of all this, i really love the Allie X song, "All the Rage," because she sings about how she "wasn't good enough to be elected" with the same melodrama i felt haha
anyway, this memory just made me think that i guarantee that both my PL brother and i (but especially me) definitely got incredibly pissed off about having lost. We weren't exactly known for having the most even tempers. "Cinematic parallels" between present life and past life haha. i've always been very competitive, it seems.
Do you ever catch parallels like that? Where things go down in the same way they did before?
and that reminded me that in my current life, when i was in sixth grade, i ran for student council. i was in a very competitive high-achiever friend group, so of course i had to keep up with the joneses. eventually (in 7th grade) i got secretary, and i got the little tie pin i wanted, so i could flex with my uniform about having been involved in the upper echelons of the school. very silly.
but in my first election, i think i went for president or something a bit higher level, and i totally crumbled into angry tears about losing to the girl i had decided was my rival. but i got scolded because i should have supported her, we were friends. i really was surprised by how viciously envious i felt at the time, the sudden animosity felt so out of nowhere.
i scared myself so much with how suddenly i hated her, that after that, i prevented myself from ever feeling jealousy or envy or anything like that, and for a while i doubled down really hard on being a Goody Two Shoes. because of all this, i really love the Allie X song, "All the Rage," because she sings about how she "wasn't good enough to be elected" with the same melodrama i felt haha
anyway, this memory just made me think that i guarantee that both my PL brother and i (but especially me) definitely got incredibly pissed off about having lost. We weren't exactly known for having the most even tempers. "Cinematic parallels" between present life and past life haha. i've always been very competitive, it seems.
Do you ever catch parallels like that? Where things go down in the same way they did before?