Hello, new to this forum....not new to past life experiences (at least I don't think so.) Very recently an ongoing feeling I've had since I was about 12-13 has developed into something all consuming and I'm starting to feel like I'm just crazy. It started with a love for a show and what I thought was a vivid imagination in my teen years. I learned all I could about this show, it's back story, and it's characters and found I knew things about it before I read it if that makes sense. Still nothing more than a child's imagination- but I had developed a true relationship with it's characters. Like a lot of things, this faded to the background as I got older but it never quite left me. I had always dreamed about the main character and the intense love story that was entwined with her- most girls had Disney princesses and I had this. An alarm in the back of my mind had always sounded that I would not be that fortunate, that I would inevitably relate more to a different character and it seems I should have listened. I would be here for a year explaining how this all relates, but I don't want to do that to anyone that has to read this. I've always been told that there is usually some truth behind myths and legends, which is what this show was based on to its very foundation- so no I am not claiming some show I saw when I was a kid to be real, or the characters or story within it real, but the parallels to what I believe to be some very strong past life flashes appear to relate. It started with a recurring dream when I was younger, a somewhat modern but very old setting, and a battle being fought. The most vivid imagery I could remember was finding a safe haven with friends in a cabin in a forest near a field, walking out of the cabin to a clearing and facing the Moon, only for it to be covered with red and I drop to my knees sobbing and screaming. I had this dream several times a month, sometimes week and never understood it despite the many dream workshops and studies I had attended. But I always woke up sobbing, heart pounding. Since that young age I have always had empathic tendencies especially regarding romantic love and sexual feelings. I have always been searching for someone too, a very specific someone but I had yet to awaken those memories. Now that somewhat of a background has been established I can move on to current events. I've always had flashes, strange flashes of old battles, of romantic sometimes very intimate moments but they were never too vivid or powerful just strange and often between two people. The woman I have identified myself with didn't look too much different than I did in my teen years, just much more beautiful and powerful, a warrior. As these flashes have developed, I realized they centered around a soul mate of sorts. He had pale, almost silver long hair, extremely strong and piercing light eyes and was much older than me but not old by any means despite his hair color. The messages get jumbled as recently during the most unexpected moments of my day, powerful almost dreamlike (though I am awake) visions play out accompanied by the most intense emotions I think I've ever felt. I feel love for this unknown person, a sense of forgiveness, and I can never get a clear image of his face. But in these visions we have killed each other on battlefields (I have felt the stab wounds), and shared an intense love, and fierce betrayal. I am left with an all consuming want for this person and I don't know how to handle it. I have told myself I'm just crazy many times, but it doesn't stop that feeling in my chest or stop what I can only imagine are memories from happening.