although i was brought up as a christian i have always believed in reincarnation as i have has past life experiences. i have had a few spiritual experiences also but wasnt able to discuss them with anyone, it wasnt until my son aged 3 mths died that i began to be search for what i truly believed in. my son died from a catalogue of medical errors and i believe his life was taken from him the day thomas died i felt this stong instinct that he wanted to come bk. because of this. everyone just said thats grief etc, but it didnt go just kept getting stonger, i spoke to him in spirit and asked him for a sign if it was true, i knew in my heart what i wanted as a sign and told everyone if it snows on the day of his creamation it was a asign as it snowed the day he was born, this was in end march the icy season had ended and sure enough it snowed that evening. it took me 7 years to get pregnant with thomas and i was concerned that i would have probs conceiving, so i got a fertility spell cast for me, and i continued to cast myself for this. i got pregnant the 2nd mth trying and the first mth casting which was quite amazing. i often felt his prescence almost every night, then one night while casting i was guided to hold his ashes in my hand i felt him so strongly, after that i discovered i was pregnant and that would have been the date of implantation. i did not feel his presence for a while after and was convinced that he was reincarnating in the body of the new baby but i have since felt his prescence in spirit again so i was confused someone told me that the spirit moves in and out before birth? i do feel that it was prob a learning experience for me the last time he was here one on a personal level and the other the fact that i have worked in the media and would have the knowledge to expose this hospital as there is a very high rate of infant deaths there. i have been asking to be shown whether the spirit is in the body of this baby or in the spirit realm and also to be shown what it felt like for thomas as he died, well my older daughter, 8 yrs (who it also took me 7 years to conceive) had a dream of a dark tunnel with a light coming closer from one end of it, could that have been my answer as it was something she could not have described, and the next night another strange thing happened. when we were trying to conceive the baby we were doing it in a different bedroom, which isn't used as i couldnt relax in the room where thomas used to sleep with us. i had asked for something to indicate where his spirit was and the canopy which is quite heavy fell down on top of the bed where this baby was conceived, there was no one in the room. ppl say though reincarnation takes a long time and thomas only died in march, so most ppl would be of the impression its too soon. any thoughts on any of this?