My Days Of Avalon

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  1. shadowsofmypast

    shadowsofmypast Senior Registered

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    Avalon is fake place I know.
    This this memory has kinda always been with me
    with an interest of medieval
    era . I lived in England during medieval
    times . I came of privilege. I was a woman named was Miriam.
    I had not care in the world. I had blonde curly hair dark blue eyes
    I had a small face and little nose,an a large smile.
    My friend Rachel, had brown curly and hair brown eyes.
    She was alot shorter than I.It was strange how much
    we looked alike.
    We very close. It was not till much later I found out
    much later we were half sisters.

    I remember we were playing in abandon castle.
    We are teenagers at the time. The grass was so green
    it had to be spring or summer. I was wearing a long
    dress in a light purple color. I had my hair tied back
    I was wearing a white flower crown I made my self.
    My friend was wearing light Beige dress .
    She had flower crown also but let her hair flow
    I believe my father said be careful,
    about this old castle.
    We were running and dancing around there alot
    little flowers growing with the grass.
    As for title in thread

    It comes from song title Days Of Avalon

    Some parts of songs is what, I experienced back then
    Most memories at the time came from
    and other songs like Stair Way to Heaven.
    pretty much came out today.

    For me, that life, is last time I felt really free.cover face
    I will write more later. I still see myself embracing
    in morning sun on hill with my friend
    I was so happy. it's so hard sometimes.cover face

    I'm nearing the end or the beginning
    Whichever one finds me
    And I'm counting the tears
    And the blessings
    That I'll leave behind
    I could ask more
    You were the one thing worth living for
    I will remember days of Avalon
    I will remember night in your arms
    I will remember Days of Avalon
    and recall every moment
    Of my days in the sun
    As I embrace the twilight
    The memories surround me
    I would have been lost
    Sure as the rain comes
    If you hadn't found me
    Each breathe is for you
    I never knew how to live till you taught me
    I will run through door
    I'm not afraid anymore
    And the light that see in your eyes
    Once again I will be whole
    I will live in your soul
    Longer than rest of our lives

    Song by Richard Marx
     
  2. BriarRose

    BriarRose Senior Registered

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    Most myths seem to have a basis of reality, shadows, even if it is lost in the "mists of time". You easily could have been playing in castle ruins, Avalon, or not. Just out of curiosity, do you have any memories of having been a man? I don't like my "male" memories, because being that sex feels alien to me, but I can't deny that I have them. How about you?
     
  3. shadowsofmypast

    shadowsofmypast Senior Registered

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    That is real good question


    In time I will tell more.
     
  4. shadowsofmypast

    shadowsofmypast Senior Registered

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    Being of privilege I was shielded


    from problems that befell are society.


    My mother had fire red hair, she


    was a troubled soul she could not handle


    any kind of conflict she would go into her self.


    In a corner hum some kind song she only knew.


    I would here screams from dungeons


    near by .I tired not let it bother me


    but it did. It was very unsettling for you child's ears


    My mother growing up did not do much


    for me .I had other people tend to me


    But, after while, I fended for myself which displeased


    my father greatly.
     
  5. BriarRose

    BriarRose Senior Registered

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    Up to a certain point in a child's life, what happens at home can be more important than conditions in society. I felt that with my children. I could shield them until they started school, but then the outside world intruded. You didn't experience hardship from a financial point of view, but your mother was unstable. Having an unstable mother is very difficult for a little one. Sorry, shadows.
     
  6. shadowsofmypast

    shadowsofmypast Senior Registered

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    Warning Graphic


    This memories came about today in a dream


    Toby was my four old brother.


    He had some problems he would often stare


    at a wall for long periods of time


    at talk in some nonsense verbal language.


    He had large black eyes you could see his


    sadness within.


    My mother could take not care of him


    and was sent away to other relatives.


    I never really saw much of him again.


    At the time I was in my late teens.


    I was standing on bridge looking downward


    at river below looking at falling leaves one by one


    drift into the water.


    I was there to find some peace


    hearing sounds of nature.


    Rachel, was elsewhere near by.


    I was staying with my aunt and uncle.


    When I got back I was told by a servant of my fathers.


    My mother had killed herself a night ago.


    She was crying so was my aunt .


    The female servant said my mother kept stabbing


    herself in stomach with a small dagger.


    over and over again, saying the baby need to breathe


    the baby needs to breathe. The servant


    said my mother was crying and laughing as she stabbed


    herself.


    I was beside myself for what happened.


    I ran to my aunt for comfort but same time


    as I felt sadness in some part me was


    glad she had peace.


    Never truly knew how tortured my mother really was.
     
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    BriarRose Senior Registered

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    That's sad, shadows. I'm sorry. Do you know your PL mother in this life? I don't think it was suicide - she was deranged.
     
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    I think that may have been more common than we think. Women who had unplanned pregnancies before the pill and legal abortions were more likely to have nervous breakdowns or worse. My maternal grandmother had a nervous breakdown in the 1930's after having 5 kids in 10 years. She then had 2 more kids after that. This was back when raising a family was often back breaking work, and not much help.
     
  9. shadowsofmypast

    shadowsofmypast Senior Registered

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    My mother is not that women from that life


    I don't I want a toxic person in my life, like


    that ever again. My mother was my twin,


    In a Asian past life.


    There was alot unspoken illness in those days.


    What getting know is about my aunt in that


    life who might be in this life.


    What mother did in that life really bothers.


    It's constant loop for couple days


    now it's kinda decreased.


    Like said before those days.


    Were not the best for anybody live in


    There was alot self imposed romance with


    novels an such of that era most was


    such fiction . As unicorns and rainbows
     

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