I found this site while trying to find answers to my incredible pain. My youngest child, my only Son died 12/14/2010, at the age of 20. It has been 15 months of living hell. I have prayed and prayed, went to group grief counseling sessions and even had a readings with psychics in an attempt to heal. After my Son's autopsy was performed, the L.A. County Coroner said to me, "Your Son reminds me so much of myself at that age. I was also blonde haired and blue eyed. I want you to know that I took great care with him and treated him like he was my own. He is coming back to you and soon. You'll know him because he'll have the same marks on him. Like the red mark under his eye." I was completely blown away that the Medical Examiner was talking to me about reincarnation! I said, "Are you a Psychic?" To which he replied, "No, I'm a Scientist. You should read the book by Ian Stevenson, Twenty Cases Suggestive of Reincarnation." I have no idea how the Doctor knew that I was spiritual or believed in life after death. Nor did he know that I remember the day I was born, as well as several days before I was born...which I confirmed with my birth Mother when I found her, 20 years after the fact. Just prior to my Son's death, my daughter and I had a reading with a famous Psychic, Lisa Williams. We were trying to find answers to my Sister-in-Law's murder. Lisa kept changing the direction of her reading and asked my daughter at least three times, "Who's the baby boy angel that is behind you?" We didn't know any baby boy's, nor was anyone that we knew pregnant at the time. Fast forward to just last week, my daughter found out that she was pregnant (13 weeks) and was given an immediate ultrasound, due to her heart problems. She called me in tears to tell me that she was having a baby boy. The ultrasound picture clearly showed the baby's *****. The Doctor and the Nurse both joked with her, saying it's rare to be so visible at only 13 weeks. I laughed, of course and said, "That's almost word for word what the Doctor said to me, when I was pregnant with your Brother!" Then my daughter and I both let out an "Oh my God" gasp and said at the same time, "It's him...he's coming back to us!!" My Son had always promised me a blond haired, blue eyed baby Grandson. Since my pregnant daughter is married to a hispanic and my older daughter isn't even close to having children, I always assumed it would be my Son who would give me one. I seriously don't care what color my Grandchildren are, it was just something we always joked about. I would tell him repeatedly, "I already have a blond baby....YOU!" So, maybe it's because I'm mourning him so deeply and want him back at any cost....but, in my heart and soul, I'm convinced that he's coming back to me...through my daughter, as my Grandchild. I have gotten no communication with him from the other side. At least none that I would have felt. I think that is because of the blinding pain. And after finding out last week that the baby is a boy, I was overcome with joy and expected a loud and clear message from him. But nothing. And we always promised each other, whoever died first, had to contact the one left here on earth. I hope someone can help me with my question. Is it possible that the baby is my son coming back to us? He promised me he'd never leave me. He died from an accidental overdose. His Grandmother gave him Morphine pills because he had a stomach ache, and he drank a few beers and simply laided down and died. He had no idea what the pills were, he just trusted his Grandma. The Grandmother hasn't been charged with any crime as of yet, and that really upsets us all. Thank you for any insight, thoughts, etc. I'm so desperate for answers.