Hi all, I have finally decided to share my story. On May 14, 2009, my beautiful, incredible son died from leukemia after a year and a half battle. Jay was 11 yrs and 17 days old. Of course, I was crazy with grief. A month after Jay died, I was laying on my back on my bed sobbing, and still crazy with grief. (I can see how grief can kill a person). As I was laying there, in a matter of a split second or quicker, I received a "concept". I didn't hear any words or see any visions. I just "knew". And it happened quicker than anything I have experienced, though the memory is very clear and seems to last for much longer. All at the same time, I "knew" that Jay would come back to me, reincarnate, AND I felt sane for the first time. I felt warm, sane, peaceful, and normal. I instantly quit sobbing, and hopped up from my bed, knowing that, "Ya, Jay will reincarnate!" I had felt a large presence at the foot of my bed and to the left. This presence, I believe now, is some kind of Spiritual Master or equivilant. I think it was more masculine, but I could not sense a recognizable person, or feature. He was tall, too, about 7 ft. Does this make sense to anyone? Well, anyway, I got up, feeling perfectly normal, and instantly sane and happy. I was able to go about normal life activities for the first time. What is weird about this is that I did NOT believe in reincarnation. I was a Christian and we all have just one life to live. Then, as the next day came and then others, I began to wonder about myself and the experience and doubt came in. Did what happen to me, really happen? I couldn't tell anyone... they would think I was really over the deep end...or the devil had gotten a hold of me... or something. But, my experience was an incredible one. So, I began to search, and search. I had to know about reincarnation AND if it was even possible that a child would come back to the same mother in the mother's same lifetime. I had NEVER heard of such a thing. I ordered every book out of the library system in the state of Minnesota that I could find. The very first book I checked out was on unsolved mysteries. In this book was the story of John Pollock and his girls. This was only one story. And I needed more information, more understanding. I have read just about every book that is mentioned here on the site. I have also checked out books and movies regarding the spiritual realm (that are not really considered Christian). I have prayed and talked to Jay, and others on the Other Side. I was able to hear Jay right away after he died, and have been able to communicate with him and others. I didn't realize that people can do this. I have been doing this since I was a child not knowing that it was really happening, or what was happening. I have felt quite crazy about this reincarnation thing. Although, now, I am very comfortable and feel as if this is what I have always believed. Ok, so, I keep searching for other stories of children returning to their mothers. There was the one in Carol's book, John Pollock, but I couldn't find any others. I kept searching over the internet. Then, I found Wendy, but not on this website. I didn't know how to get a hold of her. I prayed that God would take care of her: she had a question placed to a pastor about her son returning. The pastor gave her a pat answer and was not very compassionate. She wanted to know if her son could return to her. Then a few months later, I found her on here! And I found Jesse's story! Jesse's story sounds very similar to mine in that the boys communicate with their mother. I didn't know of anybody else that that happened to. So, now I have unloaded. I know this is a long story already and it isn't even half of it. I just need to connect with other people who believe in reincarnation, and just drop off my "secret". I have been reading the forum for many months, feeling comforted, yet isolated. And feeling very crazy about this message I got from this Spirit that I am not familiar with very well (in my conscious memory). It is so easy for me to talk to just about anyone on the Other Side... I wonder if I am a little weird, or crazy, or do I just imagine it, or do I live on another plane? Inside, I know the truth. But, I guess the human part of me needs to connect with others in this world. The grief I still feel for Jay is incredible and overwhelming. It is just recently become that way. It is almost as if he just died. I can still hear him. I just need to unload...write it all down, send it out there to other people, anyone, I don't care. I don't want to keep it a secret any longer. Only Wendy, my husband, and 16 yr.old daughter know. (they are all fairly spiritual like me, especially my daughter). (Oh, and Toby, the 3 yr old, has told me on many occasions that Jay is coming back, or that Jay taught him this or that.) Ok, I am done...for now.