I know this is an old thread but it is the closest thing that I found on this forum that describes what I have been experiencing my whole life and since I am a new member, I thought I would contribute my story and just maybe someone else can relate or help me out.
I have had “night terrors” my whole life that involves sleep walking, talking, climbing walls, screaming, etc… They always pertain to what I have been describing to my family as “balls of light/energy” or when I was younger, the “tiny faceless white people”.
It is extremely hard to explain but I will try my best. I usually see them within the first 30 minutes of falling asleep and once that happens, they usually appear throughout the night in my dreams. Once I see them, I will often wake up, scream, talk to them or something of that nature and for a few minutes, I still see them. The feeling and vision is so real. I often get angry at my husband upon first waking because he cannot see them and I get embarrassed. I have said many times, “they’re right there, can’t you see them?” before waking up in frustration. They have become such a part of my life since childhood that I have learned to accept them as part of who I am.
They are faceless white balls of energy. They remind me of children because they are always mischievous. They seem to be playing with me and teasing me, flying around my room without a care. There is always a door above my bed where they come in and out of and I have found myself many times waking up feeling the wall and looking for the door. They can be destructive and like I said mischievous. There was a time when it appeared that they were flying so much in and out of the ceiling that I thought it was going to crumble. It was almost as if they were reshaping it by rearranging the particles or atoms or whatever. I woke up standing on the bed with my arms in the air apparently trying to hold the ceiling up and protect my husband. I remember feeling angry at them for playing such a mean joke.
Their favorite thing is wires. They weave in and out of the walls, rearranging wires as if they are trying to build something. I cannot even count how many times I have woken up because I tried to put my hand through the wall trying to touch them. It appears that they want me to help them or do something but I have never been able to figure out what. At times, I’ve woken up and had the feeling that whatever they were doing wasn’t finished and I wasn’t supposed to wake up yet. Like I said before, every time I wake up, I can still see them for a few minutes until I am fully conscious. I never remember what they truly look like. There have been times when they seem more urgent then other times as if they are yelling at me to get my attention but I never understand what they want. I have tried many times to talk to them before I go to sleep and let them know I am willing to listen if they want to tell me something but nothing ever comes out of it.
I have moved many times in my life or gone on vacations and they usually do not come to me until after a few months at my new residence as if they can’t find me. It’s usually the only time I get a real full and restless night sleep and I enjoy the respite. But eventually, they find me. Over the years, I have learned to avoid them. Sometimes I will take a sleep aid or drink a few beers before bedtime and this seems to help. For the longest time, I thought I was crazy and even saw a psychiatrist who didn’t have an answer. I have had a pretty good childhood with no trauma. I often wonder if this is related to a trauma in a past life and have been planning on having a regression. I have never told anyone outside my family about this until today. I believe that some on this forum can relate and I hope that someday I can find the answers I so desperately seek.
