Is this a trigger for a past life/death?
I was just reminded of this while reading through this thread, any advice or thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I'm not sure if this counts as a trigger but I think it does. (sorry for the length).
For as long as I can remember I have had a recurring nightmare about public toilets. It's more than a nightmare, I always wake knowing it means something but I don't know what. I also suffer from ptsd and night terrors so it could just be related to that? It doesn't feel the same as those though.
In the toilets it is always dirty, really stinking and gross. There is always a tiled wall and always shower cubicles as well. It's not the same bathroom all the time though.
I am hiding in there, scared for my life. Someone is trying to find me, they will kill me when they find my hiding place.
6 years ago I lived in a beautiful big old building that was a boys school around 100 years ago. There were only two apartments in it, the rest of the rooms were for artists and dance schools and things like that. All the corridors were always open to me, but not the rooms. I used to walk around it at night and thought it was strange that I never got a feeling from the building, it didn't feel historical if you know what I mean?
One night walking home from a gig I had to walk into the back door of the building and down a long dark corridor to get to my place at the end. On the way down the corridor there was a public bathroom (just toilet cubicles). All of the sudden I felt faint and nauseous, I was petrified, so scared I felt sick to my stomach. I could feel the danger all around me. It felt like I could choke on it. At the exact same time I could see a hand gripping me around my mouth from behind and dragging me into the bathroom. I could see a knife, and blood everywhere. All over the walls and floors. (This is what I could see in my minds eye). I've never had a vision before or since, but I know this was one as I could see it and feel it like it was really happening. I was both inside the bathroom being slashed and outside running for my door at the same time.
Needless to say I ran, I really ran for my door as hard and fast as I could. I got the door unlocked and slammed it shut and locked it back up. I then spent an hour trying to calm down.
My husband was playing at the same gig and had stayed later, after about an hour and a half I heard him bashing on the door, he was almost screaming for me to let him in. I rushed over and opened it. He was white as a ghost. He said that there was something out there, but couldn't say what. He just said it was wrong, he felt the same thing as me.
We stayed living there for about a year after that. It never came back again.
But with my fear and unease of public bathrooms (they really make me feel like I am in danger), what happened that night, and my constant reoccurring nightmares about them I wonder if it is a trigger? Could I have been murdered in a public bathroom in a previous life? (what a horrid way to go
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(Sorry if this doesn't fit here, I would appreciate any input and sorry for the length.) Thanks